Death Dream

The other night I had an interesting dream... I died. I was struck by something that instantly vaporized my body. It happened so fast that I didn't feel any pain. But I was released from everything, having no bounds or limitations. I was aware, floating away from the world of form. My presence was strong- my body became formless, but it was full of energy, vibrating in the same way that any awake person who is "meditating" or staying in the present moment. But it was so much stronger than my usual attempts while awake, and I was fully illuminated in about a second.

This shows how dreams are not useless. They can be a means of spiritual awakening- if you start getting in the habit of staying present in your waking life, then you will probably do so on occasion while you are sleeping. I talked a little bit about my other dream experiences in past blog posts as well- this isn't the first time something like this has happened. I think it is easier to feel your presence in your dream, probably because dreams are lighter and seem less real.

Dreams can teach us things as well. In my dream I knew I died, but I was unafraid. I was content, calm, aware, and I ironically felt even more alive than before! I noticed that I became less afraid while awake than usual... I believed the same thing would happen to my if I were to truly die at any moment. Even if this wasn't true, being calm and unafraid of death is definitely worth it. It has helped me stay present and aware, and feel just as I did in my dream.

Strange Experiences

I haven't posted on this blog for a while, probably because much hasn't changed since then, in a spiritual sense. However, recently I've had some odd experiences.

A few days ago, as I was going to bed I was calm and laying down, in a somewhat state of presence. My legs and head were tingling because of my state of awareness. All of a sudden I felt energy moving throughout my whole body- it sorta felt like I was picked up off the bed. I felt aware of the area where my body was, but I couldn't feel any of my limbs or any specific parts of my body. It then felt like I was flying through space really quickly, like I was going somewhere. My eyes were closed, and it seemed like there were weird shapes around me, but I wasn't sure. All while this was happening, the only awareness of being where I was, laying on my bed, was hearing the sounds around me. The experience made me scared for a minute because it was so unlike any experience I had before. I thought I left my body.

Also, I've noticed that I have had dreams where I was experiencing the power of presence while I was sleeping. It was as if I was awake and meditating, except I was in a dream. Since dreams are a lot looser and less solid than the waking state, I would often start flying around- I also felt unstoppable, like I couldn't be affected or bothered by anything. I was unafraid and full of aliveness. This was a significant experience to me because it means that you can always be aware, even when you're dreaming.